This week I finally did it: I cancelled my Facebook account. I was very late in joining the FB legion, but – once in – I was in completely. I collected friends, groups, pages and events. I was fully enjoying virtual life. But somewhere deep inside it didn’t feel right. Why did I stop doing all these things I used to do? I used to make jewellery, work in my garden, write an awful lot, spend a lot time outside both on my own and with my horse. It seemed that it took me a lot of effort to get myself to do these things nowadays. I found myself more and more behind my screen, peering at the world as it was presented to me.
Five a clock in the morning and I’m wide awake. Both physically and mentally completely switched on. I do not feel startled or anything. I am just very, very, very awake and alert.
When I was about 18, a family member who was at my birthday commented on the appearance of one of the other guests. I remember the exact words, but they don’t translate well, so the gist will have to do. She basically said, loudly, that the person in question had the fattest legs she’d ever seen.
The above proverb is meant to instil fear into people’s heart, fear of doing nothing. Sounds scary enough, so it would work for me, if I would believe in a devil, which I don’t. Who needs a devil when taking into consideration what some people are capable of? But that’s beside the point. We were talking about idle hands.
Lately some heavy-duty decision making has come my way. And with it a truckload of ‘what ifs’ have entered my head. Needless to say, being as highly developed as I am spiritually this doesn’t faze me at all. I just sit, meditate for a bit and, lo and behold, the decision just comes rolling out. NOT!
On this website you will find a holistic way of looking at life in general and humans in particular. But what is holistic? Webster defines it as following: holistic: relating to holism; holism: a theory that the universe and especially living nature is correctly seen in terms of interacting wholes (as of living organisms) that are more than the mere sum of elementary particles .
In an earlier blog I told you about the detours I took in coming to where I am now. I don’t know whether you noticed, but I choose my words carefully. The following words just about sum it up: I was on the path that I thought my parents, siblings, friends, acquaintances, society in general would like to see me on. Now, there might be people who get from this sentence that I ‘blame’ others for the turns my journey took. That is not the case, however. The keyword is thought. I thought that I was doing what others wanted. But I very much made the decision to do that myself. I do not view myself as a victim. Far from it. I see myself as a very skilful navigator 🙂
A warm welcome to my blog page. My name is Emma. I am a woman in her forties, Dutch by birth, globetrotter by nature, married, two children. Therapist, teacher, writer, permaculturist, home educator, musician, not necessarily in that order. Daughter, daughter in law, sister, friend, etcetera. These are quite a lot of things you now know about me, but you still don’t know who I am. Heck, I might not even know who I am!